what the hell?! or Oompa Loompa Part 2

My clothes still don't fit. Bloat seems to be gone, and I've actually lost 2 lbs. But I still can't button my freaking pants.
And no, I'm not on a diet, but when you feel sick alot, eating is sporadic and almost nothing sounds good.

So - I guess that the world will notice a little sooner that I'm pregnant this time. Problem is that I really just look fatter, not pregnant. I forgot how annoying the first trimester can be. lol

Please don't misunderstand, I want nothing more than to be pregnant right now. I would gladly take anything this pgncy throws at me. I am just stupified that my clothes don't fit at a few days short of 7 weeks and more than a little terrified of getting H U G E (again) this time around.

15 days

till we see the bean and hopefully a HEARTBEAT.

a bean

This week the heart starts beating. It's amazing how fast the baby grows at this point. He/she is only about 5mm at this point, the size of a lentil bean. Hard to believe something that small could make you so sick!

stunt man!

Dane's newest trick is standing on his horse's back. He's a daredevil for sure. ;)

awww

This is how father and son spend Sunday afternoon. They even match! :)

Oompa Loompa

Well, I am barely getting into this pregnancy and I am already blowing up like a whale. I am astonished that I feel so big already. I *know* you often get bigger sooner with your 2nd pregnancy, but this is ridiculous. I'm only 5 weeks!
Is it bloat? Baby? (seriously doubt that one, as baby is about the size of a grain of rice right now!)

Embarassingly, I am starting out this pregnancy about 20 lbs heavier than I was with Dane. That alone is disturbing. I gained 50 lbs with him and lost it easily, but somehow gained back about 20 lbs or so since my miscarriage in January. That seems to be the gaining point in my mind anyhow. Regardless, I'm heavier than I was and I do NOT plan on putting on as much as I did with Dane. I can't diet of course, and I haven't been great about food choices so far, but I vow to get better. Blog readers - you heard it here. I will eat healthier if it kills me. :)

I actually tried on a pair of pants for church this morning and THEY DIDN'T FIT! I can hear MIL's voice in my head already. *sigh* She was constantly asking me last time how much weight I'd gained. I swear I wanted to ask her the same, but somehow held my tongue. I'm not sure I can go through that again quietly.
If you know me IRL, don't be surprised if I look like one of Willy Wonka's Oompa Loompa's the next time you see me.

Am I going crazy yet?

22 more days...

To pass the time I've been napping and feeling like throwing up. All in good fun. ha!

Ignorance is bliss

I am embarassed to admit that I don't watch the news anymore. Not only do I not have much time, but I don't have much interest either.
I pick up pieces here and there from message boards and the internet and my mother, whose favorite site is this. Entertaining.
I don't tune in though to the local or national news 98% of the time. I know I should. I feel like an ostrich with my head in the sand. I'll admit that I just feel happier about life and can live in ignorance when I pretend that the news doesn't exist.
On one hand, I want to be informed. Passionate. An advocate for change with brilliant ideas and a keen understanding of foreign and domestic affairs.
On the other hand, that's a lot of damn work. Plus, it's depressing and then I might have to take off my rose colored glasses.

bored toddler

I'm starting to be at a loss with Squishy. I don't know what to do with him some days. He gets bored easily and doesn't seem interested in his toys much anymore. We rotate them regularly, but it doesn't seem to really help.

I feel like a bad mama many days because he is bored and I feel like I should be teaching him something.
We've started using starfall and he adores it, but you can only do that so long. My kindergarteners always loved that site too.

He wants to watch TV, and this show, BoohBah, is his fave. I hate it. It is ridiculous and pointless, yet he goes around the house singing Baaah Booooh all day long. If I dare say BoohBah he runs and gets the TV remote and wants to watch it RIGHTNOW!
He's only seen it 4 or 5 times, yet he is hooked. It's a conspiracy, like Chimpokeman on that episode of South Park. ha!

This lazy mama needs some ideas on what to do with her kid. Is he too young for finger paint? He likes to color, on the walls especially.
He likes to be outside but it's sodamnhot that I don't want to go out much.
Hmmm, I've got to think of something.

Holy Moly!

My hcg at 12 days past ovulation was 133. My progesterone level was "fine" - she didn't give me a number.
According to this that is a bit high for a normal singleton pregnancy. Note that their chart starts at 14 days past ovulation which is 2 days later then my draw.
I keep reading, all over the web:
At 14 DPO, the average HCG level is 48 mIU/ml, with a typical range of 17-119 mIU/ml.

So, I guess twins actually are a possibility. I think I need to go lie down.

Oh, and my first u/s is on Sept 11th, so a little less than a month and we'll know!

not up to me...

I should get the results from my progesterone and hcg tomorrow. I'm very excited and nervous.
I have been having a LOT of cramping and it makes me OsoNervous. I had some cramping with Dane too, but I don't remember it hurting this bad.
I know that there is nothing I can do. If this pregnancy sticks or not, it's not up to me.
I just have to let go and let God...

grrr

Rude Receptionist didn't have Dr call me back yesterday. :/
Have not heard from Dr. NEEED, WANT, Need progesterone and hcg test. They are CLOSED on Fridays and now I have to wait till Monday. agh!
Stupid rude bitch.

vent over

he - now I've calmed down and feel bad for calling her a bitch. She still is one though.
BUT I managed to talk to a nurse and get my bloodwork and prescription for Prometrium after all. :)

Guess what? !!

Guess what?

PS - if you know me in real life, this is a secret till I get some bloodwork done. Obviously, I knew some of you would read this and I'm cool with it but D is nervous about sharing, so no telling the parents or IL's. Thank you!

hmmmmm

Yesterday morning and this morning I got very light lines on an internet cheapie test. I don't put a lot of stock in them, and technically I'm not even late yet, but I am a little excited.
3 tests. 3 very light lines.
We'll see what tomorrow brings.

Seattle - last one - I promise!

On Sunday we went to the SeaFair air and boat show. Then we went to the Flight Museum and then on to a ridiculously long night that started us at the airport in Seattle at around 9 PM and found us at home in Huntsville around 10:30 AM Monday. What an incredibly long night.
Needless to say, we are happy to be home. Seattle was a nice place to visit, but we will not ever be living there by choice. It's nice to be home where half the day does not include waiting in traffic, searching for a place to park and standing in line to do various things. Not to mention there are actual parking lots where you can park *gasp* for FREE! lol
Here is one last pic of Dane in a plane at the Flight Museum.

Seattle part four

We went to Mt Rainier National Park today. It was breathtaking. These pictures don't do it's beauty justice.

The falls are Narada Falls. Notice the rainbow.

Just because it's so damn cute.

Dane face planting! on Vimeo

Seattle part 3

Dane on the hippo at Woodland Park zoo.
Dane amused us and a large number of onlookers by constantly meowing at the "kitty" and calling it to come to him.
Daddy and Dane on the carousel. I do believe that Darren liked it more.
What's that thing?
Look, it's a statue of Daddy!! (just kidding...)

Snoqualmie Falls. Beautiful.

Darren & Dane down on the rocks in front of Snoqualmie Falls. It was a very steep hike down there and even worse back up. It was worth it though.

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So far we've had a nice trip. Sunday is SeaFair (air show) and tomorrow is Mt. Rainier and the Museum of Flight.

I now believe that Darren and I could never peacefully reside here in Seattle, lovely though it is. He does not deal well with traffic. It really ruins his whole day and he generally ends up pissing me off as well, which ruins my day. Our marriage might not survive that sort of daily abuse. lol

We've been eating out daily as we are staying in a motel. Bad for the diet.

Dane is not the best as sitting still, so eating out provides some challenges. I feel like screaming "canIpleaseEATinPEACEforfivefreakingminutes?!" Not so good for the digestion. Dane however, does not seem to notice as he is flirting with all the pretty waitresses. He is quite the ladies man already it seems. I dread the teenage years. I feel rather ill just thinking about it.

Seattle - more pics

Dane & Darren at the Science Center. What's up there?
Ooooh. A big ball!!
A big water gun. Fun. Who's enjoying it more?

The view from the harbor cruise. Very nice.


All in all, Seattle has been fun thus far. We'll be here till Sunday, so stay tuned for new pictures.

Seattle

Dane in the music room at the Science Center.
The view from the top!!
The Space Needle.

All 3 of us at the top of the Space Needle. What a view!

The Aquarium. Dane loved the octopus!!


This room at the aquarium was like an inverted fish bowl. Very cool.

Starfish in one of the touch tanks.
Darren & Dane with the pig in front of the Pike Place fish market. This was one of our favorite places. The Pike Place Market.